It's been almost five months since I've visited blogger.com. I figure, aside from using blogging to aid in keeping track of my search for my higher being, I can also use blogging as emotional therapy. I'm looking for different ways to channel my unpredictable emotions, for writing may be a great coping mechanism, and something I must do on a day to day basis.
I have the tendency to come up with an idea, start a project, or look into a subject that interests me at that moment in time, learn the basics, and then forget all about it. I can understand why I lack confidence and why I've depleted my self esteem. I never gave myself a chance to become proud of who I was or what I have accomplished. Looking back into the past (something many say you shouldn't do when it comes to evaluating and criticizing the present..some thing I do EVERYDAY) I realized that I was never head strong or someone who I'd call a leader of their own life. Since childhood, I've had others make decisions for me even if it didn't make ME happy. I've come to learn that I SHOULD PUT MYSELF AHEAD OF EVERYONE ELSE, AND MAKE DECISIONS BASED ON HOW I'D WANT TO MOLD MY UNIVERSE..AN ABUNDANCE OF HAPPINESS AND SELF WORTH.
Now, on with the deprogramming.
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